‘There has never been an ounce of strategy behind the way I have led my career. However, I often put myself in danger. I am sometimes at odds with myself, with a desire to drop everything. I must add that this has become even more violent recently. This feeling of having allowed myself to be taken down a dead end, a cul-de-sac, with the impression of having given my all. My entourage is often disconcerted. Just when everything should be easier, it all seem to be getting harder’.